Valcano

Have you ever felt like you are a volcano ready to explode at any time..................

The past few weeks for me have been the hardest in my life...............

I'm finally fed the fuck up...............

Everyone that I know feels as if they can use and abuse me..............

And now that I'm tyring not to let that happen anymore all is hear is that I'm a Bitch.............

What do you do when you feel like a piece of your soul is dying everyday...........

And you know that there is nothing you can do to stop it............

I mean you know how to stop it but the remedy has to be planned and executed at the right time......

So what do you do in the interim to keep yourself.............

And then it seems as if around every corner there is someone else turning on me..................

People who say they have respect, and all of the sudden are totally disrespecting me............

The tears keep falling every so often when I can no longer hold them back..............

But why should I have to, why can't I, Simone have feelings...............

Have and express them without the whole world telling me that I'm a Bitch for having those feelings....................

And why have I positioned myself with people like that.................

Not just one or two but 90%............

Do you have to be a bitch to get respect...............

I ask because I always thought that to get respect you have to give it................

But now I, I think that every person only respects themselves and everyone else just gets what ever is left after that..................

Maybe I'm just being overly sensitive or something like that I don't know.............

I just wish that for once in my life the people I put in my life would treat me the way that I treat them.............

But will that ever happen, I think that maybe I will just be a bitch and only think of me............

Sounds like a lonely existence especially for someone like me................

That nurturer in me won't let me just say fuck everyone.............

If I can help it's in me to do so.....................

The one thing that I do know for a fact right now is that the way things have been can not continue.............

No way no how because every day that volcano gets closer and closer to eruption...........

When it blows who knows how bad it might get............

Scared