SHITTY ASS WORLD

In my life lately I have found that people in this world are some shitty ass people............

I always try to be nice and positive but here lately that has been a challenge even for me..............

Why do people assume that if you are a nice and helpful person that they can treat you any way they want..............

And then when they treat you that way what do the expect................

Do they think that you are going to continue to be nice..............

Someone like me I am the nicest person that you will meet until you fuck around..........

Then you could be on fire and I wouldn't spit on you to put you out..................

And in some ways I want to change my nice ways and just be a bitch all the time..............

But for me I don't think that is a option.............

To be a bitch I would live so negative and that sucks so much energy..................

But where do I go from here................

I am broke and out of a home..............

Will I get the help I need legally, or will I also be screwed that way..............

Do you ever want to just through up your hands and quit................

Just quit life quit that fight that is kicking you in the ass every day................

But then what would happen............

It would make things 10 times worse for me................

I have such horrible and violent thoughts going through my head...........

Thoughts that would just bring negative energy to me in my life...................

But some times I think that it might be worth it to know that they got there's..............

Fair or not fair...............

Life for me is either a pile of shit or a bunch of Lilly's never anything in between...........

I must have done some bad things in another life................

When shit goes bad for me it goes bad..................

But I know that I will come out of this too..................

And I know that I will never sacrifice myself to help someone else..........

Sad that my life has come to this.................